What a difference a week makes!

I am into my first week of Power 90 3/4.  If you are wondering what that is, it is my workout routine.  Yes, I workout too!  It is the food that has made all the difference.  The biggest problem is I love food and I used to hate exercise.  After 3 years of steady workouts I have come to tolerate workouts and even maybe like them a bit.  I love the afterglow, that's what keeps me coming back for more.  I digress, this is about the food.  I have cooked a bit more this week and kept a bit of food in the fridge.  I have been able to start to trust myself with a few things in the house.  This is progress not perfection.  It is working.  The part this week is that the feelings after 8 weeks are erupting and exploding like a volcano.  They pass and I understand that because I spent so much time eating I spent less time facing my life.  At least my emotional life.  I really didn't know I had an emotional life but I guess we all do.  I look back and realize that in the past when I have lost weight, I denied my emotions until I started gaining the weight back.  Food can be very numbing.  The last few days I've cried a bit, got mad a bit and let it go.  Today I'm smiling again because my emotions didn't win and I let them pass through me like a bad case of salmonella.  My food consumption actually went down and now I am happier and lighter.  Just let the emotions be and don't take comfort in the food if this happens to you.  Comfort food is an oxymoron.  Food cannot sustain comfort.  If you take comfort in a plate of mac and cheese, that comfort is short lived followed by remorse, regret, self-hatred and a bigger waistline.  How comforting is that?  Not very much.